Donation

See this beautiful flower?...
This is a soap flower...
How I get it?...
This evening a guy came to me and asked me to support recycling activities...
Sooner or later,he told me about some charity activities...
Eventually,he brought out the main topic...
He told me this is a soap flower and he said this is made by teenagers below 20 yrs old...
They are collecting the fund for the unfortunate...
I was persuaded by him and I also felt pity to those unfortunate...
He asked me to donate RM50.00 and choosed a flower...
There are red,purple,green,pink and yellow...
Of course,I will choose yellow rose which is my favourite ^^...
The uniqueness of this flower is every pedal of the rose can be removed and used to wash ur hand...
But,how I "sa det" destroy and spoil this beautiful flower leh?...
I will keep it on my table and it's used to remind me tat...
There are always someone who needed love and assistance from us ^^...

The first spot where they entered train...

2nd spot where more vacancy and they started to sit down...

Last capture where 6 of them "pai pai cho" when there is more n more seat available...

Why I put these 3 pictures here???...
Actually today when I was in the train...
A group of Malays came in...
What special about them that attracted me to take photos on them???...
They are actually a family of about 7members...
But,all of them were wearing green colors clothes...
=.="'
Today is not Hari Raya Adilfitri boh...
However,they still all wear one set of color...
Malays really love GREEN a lot...
Even whole family go gai gai also wanna be all green...
Maybe it is good for sight ^^

Post ICA feelings~

I did extremely bad in my exam T_T...I felt disappointed to myself and felt that I am so useless to stay in this world...Dad will be very very very sad n disappointed when he sees my result...I have a strong bad feeling that I will fail the exam...I hate myself a lot...

After exam,I hide myself in my room and cried for the whole afternoon until my eyes swollen up...I have no appetite at all that day but actually there are more n more feelings that I encountered...It is too sad to recall it here and I hope to hide every sad stuffs inside my heart and bury them forever...

In fact,there's no point studying so hard for exams...I sacrified a lot of things but the end result is that I cant achieve a grade that satisfies me...What's the point of memorising every stuffs until forget what date is today?What am I doing?and etc???....T_T

Anyway,everyone in my class is disappointed to our performance too...This is why I said the papers for our exam are pretty silly...Some of the questions are worthless...Everything has been a history....What I have to do is to focus on my next final paper...Gambateh to myself n my batch mates!~

However,after exam I did go out with my fren,Tra...We went for lunch and dinner... Besides,we also watched the new movie,Terminator....

My dinner - fish congee^^

Fish enveloped by eggs rice ^^

Roasted kuey teow with minced meat^^

~Compulsory tasks~

I am planning what to do right after exam....
Firstly,after exam,sure must clean n tidy up my messy room....
After that of course have to replenish my sleeping hours....
Then cook my ma po taufu n Thai style fish....
Whereas Saturday n Sunday wait for calling to go for work....
If no work,then I am looking forward to Genting....
At the meant time,I may finish all my hk series as well....
Yup,before I forget,I have to finish a task for my sister....
She just sent me a shopping list last week....
I think I have to help her buy what she wants before I back....
However,although finish exam,I dont think have enough time to play n relax....
Monday still have class as usual, T_T
But,it might be less heavy than those previous systems....
We are going to have 3 weeks of selective....
The topic of my selective weeks is "Nutrition"....
After 3 weeks of selective and 1 week rest here....
I may go back my lovely hometown,Sandakan....
I will spend 2 weeks at Sandakan for clinic posting....
After that,i will back KL for hospital posting at Seremban Hospital....
Finally,my Semester 5 will begin on this coming August ^^
Now I realise that really not many holidays T_T

Nutrition?

My dinner...
maggie again...T_T
haiz,in IMU really nothing to eat...
Maggie has been my main meals...
Maggie + chilli + vege + seaweed = Yen's meals...
This has always been my meals' formula...

This is delicious what???...
Anyway,have to stop this jor...
Hair is dropping more n more...
After exam,MUST cook myself instead of eating maggie...

Hehehe,these are my favourite maggie...

This is nice but the most bottom one is the best to me^^


This is ok de,not as delicious as others but cheaper than others ^^


This is my most favourite choice !!~

However,I will eat those Malaysia's maggies as well...
But,as compared to these,I seldom eat Malaysia's maggies...
Maybe only 3 over 10 times ^^

Panic T_T

One day left to exam....
Unexpressed outpouring....
Thinking to give up in studying...
Hope to sleep from now till the day of exam...
But,I cant do it...
There are a lot left...How am I manage to squeeze everything inside my brain???...
Help me!!~~....
These two days didnt watch drama le....
I hope to have a bit more result in doing my revision but everything is same...
There is a limitation of knowledge being absorbed everyday....
When the brain reject to fill in any more informations,there is no point looking at my notes for 24hrs....
I will just look at it n day-dreaming only...
what is the best thing that I can do now???....
I totally dont have confident to myself...am I able to finish the questions in time???....
Am I manage to do all questions based on my recent preparations???...
I dont know what bad consequences i may get at the end...
I just hope I can pass it at least with a grade that wont disappoint me....

Facial Products^^

Recently busy chasing hk dramas

and study for exams so no time write wordy blogs hehehe...
This post is nothing special...
just share share my variety of facial products
coz these days KL's weather changes spontaneously from sunny to rainny day
and also from windy to breathlessness atmosphere...
It's peculiar and always above 30 degree celsius....

and I found out tat these products helped me a lot ^^
....hehehe....
To my dear frens who are currently at Malaysia,esp. KL...
Do drink more water,eat more fruits or drink more juices and
consume more 'buang panas',especially those who are burning midnight oil
Take care your health ^^


Skin food cucumber emulsion to prevent water loss ^^
Clinique facial washing and toner^^

The Body Shop hydration balance and moisture white cream^^

Hallucination?

I missed these foods...
Sabah and especially Sandakan is the heaven of seafoods ^^...
Tempting n splendid!!!~ Yummy!~ Yummy!~
KL never serve me these nice foods... T.T
只有望梅止渴 =.=

Cancel class again=.=

We supposed to attend for lectures from 4pm to 7pm this evening...
When everyone are waiting in the auditorium,our class batch suddenly told us that both of our lectures are cancelled and may be replaced...
OMG!~Yesterday,the same thing happened where the lecturer didnt appear although we waited for half an hour in the lecture hall and eventually someone went to called her but failed to approach her and the class is replaced on tomorrow...
What happen to IMU system?Our classes are always not following the time-table...
This is ridiculous!!!Next week we are going to sit for exam already...
Besides attending the usual lectures that had been planned for next week,we have to replace for this week classes again...
How are we going to have enough time to revise for our exams???...
Everything that is thaught before the day of exam will also be tested in our exam...
We have to study for it as well but if next week is fully occupied by classes then where we find our time to study T.T...
I feel dislike to the irresponsibility of those lectures who always postpone or absent for our classes...
Grr...Grr...

Relief stress

I have a bad habit recently...
When I feel stress,I start to waste money to relief myself from it...
Dont know I have a weird feeling,when I go shopping or buy something,I will feel the happiness and satisfaction...
Hopefully I am not the only one who feel this... I know this is not a good habit or nice way to release myself from stress...
If let my dad knows it,sure he will "chekik" me :P...
Fortunately I am not using my pocket money,hehehe...
However,I think I have to refrain myself from this habit,or else my salaries from part time jobs will finish soon...
In fact,after this exam I have no time to shopping anymore until end of this year because I have many hopsital and clinic postings as well as many practical sessions and end of year exams before going to overseas...
Hohoho,these are my recent shopping products hehehe...

Cant stand these =.=

Hope exam ends as soon as possible...
I cant stand the atmosphere of my room already T.T ...
I feel discomfort to see my room like that...
I just want some time to clean it up...
hehehe....

Sorry T.T

I hurted someone yesterday night...
I am so so so sorry to him,hope he can forgive me T.T...
Frankly,I find myself quite moody and stressful recently,sometimes really dont know what I am doing and always forget what and where I was...
Even when withdrawing money from ATM machine I will also dreaming and pressed wrongly and finally transfered RMXX to unknown account T.T...
What's in my mind????...
Dad said this senario is NORMAL but do you agree???...
He said if I like that is good because this proves that I am paying efforts in my exams...
He also said when our mind is filled with academic stuffs then what we do also heartless...
I agree with this but isn't this scary???...
I dont want to be this type of ppl,or else I may unconsciously commit suicide one day or unintentionally contribute to crimes....
Who knows right???...
Anyway,I really feel guilty and regret about what I have done to him...
Sorry,sorry and sorry if I unconsciously hurted you...
Hope I get rid of this bad habit as soon as possible...
or else there might be 2nd victim or the same victim again T.T

不幸的他

I am in the second week of renal system now...Recently I study a lot of kidney diseases...Every diseases is very fresh and new to me because I never hear them before...I think I have to put a lot of effort in this systems because there are a lot of things I shall and must know.Besides,there are only 2 weeks left to my exam...I dont have study weeks so I have to study hard these 2 weeks,not only to assimilate new knowledges from renal system but also to revise reproductive and endocrine systems!~...

These days,I read through a lot of diseases and derangements of the urinary tract.Maybe because always see this word...."DIALYSIS",so someone always appears in my mind these days...

He had passed away when I was in Senior 1...Why he was so well-impressed to me?....Bcoz I saw him since primary school and in primary school he was just like us,active and alert...However,an onslaught happened to him when he joined secondary school and he started to visit dialysis center(洗肾中心) 3 times every week....I felt sympathy to him that time although I never talk to him and frankly,I just knew his name but never make friend with him since he is one year elder than me and not in the same class with me....

I remembered very well that when I was junior 3,because of certain reasons,he had to study junior 3 once again and was unable to proceed to senior 1 and he was in the class next to mine...From that year onwards,I observed that he always slept in classes and even recess time and I felt weird about this senario...Few months later,someone told me that he has some problems with his kidney so he has to visit dialysis center 3 times every week...I think this is why his outpouring always showed tired,weakness and fatigue....

The most devastating moment happened when I was in Senior 1...One morning,I saw many frens from neighbouring class were absent and hence we asked teacher why many students were absent that day.Eventually teacher told us that he had passed away and some of our frens went to attend his funeral and mourned for him...

To me,he is a good role for me to appreciate my own life irregardless of troubles and pains.Unfortunate events happened on him but he still strong enough to face them.Visiting dialysis center oftenly is not an easy job because it is expensive and there are a lot of suffering,worries and pains both physically and mentally from the patient which cannot be described by words...

Of course,he has also be a force to me to study hard in my medical life,just like my aunt who had passed away dued to cancer....To recapitulate my dreams,I wish I can save those who are suffering from physically and mentally pains and diseases in my future....Therefore,dont simply give up my own aims and targets....Exams are not everything,I have to study for future not for exams...Stress is always there,but I shall always remind myself the force that push me to be a doctor....Gambateh !!!....

谢谢你们！~

最近心情都变化很大。。。加上与室友和朋友的少少误会搞得我整个人乱了。。。此外，剩下的时间也已经不多了，还有两个星期我就要上战场了，累积如山的笔记越看越心烦。。。之前，我还与母亲发生一些争执。。。所以，难面地我的情绪变化很大。。。

然而，当我发觉我只在催眠自己做我认为应该完成的任务时，我身边依然还有值得我信赖的知己陪伴我度过这些日子，他们不仅协助我成长，而且还常常慰问我的状况。。。能够认识他们是我的荣幸，在这么现实与残酷的世界里，很难能够找到真正值得信赖与分享的好朋友。。。没有他们的支持，我早就迷失方向！~。。。我一定会为他们的支持而奋斗！~。。。我真的很感谢他们！~。。。幸好有他们为我加油与分忧喜怒哀乐，而且还常常给我善意的劝告与意见。。。是他们让我坚强起来。。。很很很谢谢你们！~。。。

还有一个不怕耐烦，不怕厌倦，反而还在累极了的状态特地不睡而浪费时间听我诉说心事的你。。。谢谢你昨夜陪伴我，当我的聆听者，即使很累也依然坚持听我罗罗嗦嗦了整一个钟！~当我把内心的真实情感说出来后，我觉得整个人轻松得多了，真的很感谢你！~谢谢你！~

`我祝愿你们天天快乐！~ >.<

慰劳自己

已经很久没亲自下厨炒菜了~~突然很次想学做麻婆豆腐及泰式鱼片。。。我已经为自己计划好了，考完试后的星期六或星期日，我一定要学会着两道菜。。。

假如成功的话，希望下次回家能煮给家人吃，我想他们不会在厌倦我的旧菜式，可尝尝新菜。。。哈哈哈！~好开心哦！~我好喜欢煮东西给人家吃，可是不喜欢煮给自己吃 >.< 。。。因为总是觉得煮食物给别人是一种幸福。。。嘻嘻嘻！~那为什么我不去当厨师？？？哈哈哈，我看我没那个本事啦！！！。。。。

好！~食谱已经找到了。。。现在先努力读书，考完试之后就慢慢享受烹饪的乐趣。。。反正年终大考没那么快到，太早准备也会忘得一干二净。。。

还有还有。。。好久没吃过我最喜爱的broccoli了。。。到时候一定少不了它。。。现在想到也觉得好开心哦。。。这可是能令我从压力中寻找乐趣的兴趣。。。无论如何，一个人吃的却没什么乐趣。。。。。真希望能与他人分享！~

Skin changes~

Nothing to talk about recently...what I have to share is only stress stress and stress only...It's bored to talk about...Even myself also feel that stress has been a bored task to me....

However,I would like to share one thing here today...I am extremely sad these few days...I think my skin getting worser in quality despite eating tomato everyday :( ....I hate stress and irregular sleeping hours and malnutrition foods!!...

Can see any any amendments to my face???There is increase in the reddened and raised areas...It's not pimples,it's like a reaction of allergy,it's like rashes or flushes....So sad to see my face like that....It's not only happen on one side but to both faces...I am apprehension of it...

I hate exams and IMS which tortured me to have irregular sleeping hours!~I shall change my previous abnormal routine time-tables....I have to relax my mind in facing all troubles and stresses now....I want it to recover as fast as possible!!!~~ If I dont get rid of it as fast as possible,I afraid it will worsen to be acne....NO NO NO...I am afraid of it!!~

Messy =.=""

I cleaned my room during my last holiday but within one week,my room starts to become .... as what the following pictures are showing ~
















































How scary are exams and assignments...>.<
What's the point of cleaning my room then??...hohoho...

Getting old??

Recently dont know what had happened to me...
I am so easily get tired and exhausted.I have to sleep more hours than before...

Previously,I managed to stay up till around 1 or 2am but now I am like an old man,sleep very early around 12pm and wake up late as well in the morning...

I start to get frustrated about this.I dont want to be like that.I think I sleep too much and this may reduce my workloads everyday...

I am finding the cause of this...Is it because I am getting old?Is it because I spend too much energy for my day?Is it because I sleep less during my previous holidays?Is it because I too stress?Is it because of my diet?...If it is,I think I shall eat meat >.< ...What's the root of the problem???...Still a mystery now....

Exam is just nearby,hope I get rid of such bad behaviour as soon as possible and I wish to boost up my capability and memory or else I may not be able to finish in revising all my notes...They are still accumulating there...T.T....Really so sad to know about my recent condition....I dont want to fail....Please save me!~

I am almost lost...What's best describe me now??....Nervous,panic,stress,afraid,mad, and etc ...

Gonna mad again

Find out myself start to be stressful,nervous and panic for my coming final exam....Is it this the consequences of having too much relaxation n fun in the beginning of this semester?Life really unpredictable and why dont hapiness things always last longer?

I met a facilitator in my uni before.I told her that I got such a conditioning stress and anxiety to all sorts of exams especially those heavy one.She adviced me to cool down myself and take every job easy.But,the point is when exams come,my life gonna mess up and I start to be crazy and mad....Of course,I dont mean that I will kill someone or contribute in crimes....What I mean is my routine resting and working hrs start to go hay wire.My personality of patience losts.My mood to contribute all sort of relaxation or recreation activies disappears.What is left is the stressful mind together with normal response like palpitation,shortness of breath,always blur in doing something and etc...

This coming exam is one of my most toughest exam indeed.Preeviously,we used to have 2 systems in our in-course accessment.However,there are 3 systems now....What's the best way for me to gain the biggest benefits when studying?....May god bless me score well in my coming exams....

New System...

After discussed with my dear groupmates,I finally have an idea what shall I do for my Wednesday presentation...But,after divided our duration to voice up,each of us only have 2mins to score 3%....How shall I score it?Haiz...Anyway,I think group's co-operation is very important too,or else they wont divided us into groups... :) Let's try my best n contribute myelf wholy into this program...I think this is one kind of enjoyment other than always study on the theory part :) ...

Starts my new system today.Renal system is quite many to learn I think...It takes up 4 weeks to finish before my EXAM...When I heard exam or in-course assessment,I start to feel panic n stress up,I think it is normal to everyone of us...But it's a bad feeling that I dont like to encounter with,maybe someone likes it,hohoho....I am sure I am not the one....I am going to have a lecture about development of our kidneys,bladder and etc about our renal system later...SIGH!~I dont think tonight might have a sweet dream n toght sleep because I have to work out for my IMS n today's lecture if time allows me...By the way,I have to stay back after lectures and I hope wont go back home too late tonight,so tiring oo~~~

Why my holiday lasts so short???? Time flies away unconsciously.... Hope for a better tomorrow~

Camera~

I went shopping with Lin Wai at Pavilion today....

Recently I just feel like hoping for a camera to play with...I went to see some products from Sony and Canon....Everyone looks same to me but I think I am interested in the Canon mega pixel 12.1 or 13 which is red in color but I forgot it's model number :P ....Anyway,it is not cheap,it's RM1299.00....more expensive than my handphone....Hope my urge to buy camera is just 3 minutes hotness...coz I'm not affordable to pay for that amount....YEN!!~~Shall save money for ur target first....dont think too much abt other stuffs....

Let's distract myself from camera~....My presentation for Integrated Medical Seminar is coming soon....I have no idea about it at all....Everyone seems working hard for it but I still in a muddle state now....My theme is infertility....and my case study is male infertility....Well,I've been thinking to find everything about it but fren suggested me this way does not work....If this way does not work,then what shall I do now???....I think the only solution now is to wait for next Monday discussion so that I know which part I am going to concentrate on.....Hope that is not too late for since presentation on Wednesday.....Is it my classmates too worry about it or I too relax about it?????.....I dont have a clue about it.....

Yeah...I just realised that I have a new mission today...What is that???SECRET :P..Let's work it out...Gambateh oo!!~~

Pain from the shoes n ktm onslaught...

I went to a nice movie,X-men, with my frens few days ago...

What happened to my leg on that day???

That day,I wore my new shoes to meet my frens...It looks awesome to my legs when it was complemented to the shoes...The only thing that flawed this is it hurted my legs and resulted in swollen,reddened and bloody lesion to both my legs just behind the ankle.
Well,I believe that women are borned with the natural instinct--willing to suffer for beauty...
Although I realised it caused discomfort when I still at my home,I insisted to wear it because except the shoes,no one suit my black dress...At first,I suffered from it for few hrs but I endured for the pain because of the beauty of my legs it brought to me and not the comfort.Eventually i had no feeling to it at all although it was bleeding n releasing discharge,maybe I used to that pain already....Now,I start to regret somehow because it is extremely irritated when I touch the lesions with water or when muscle around that area contracts and breaks the immatured clotting n scarring areas when I am doing some stretching movements....T.T

Another memorable things to me is that we have to wait for the KTM from 6.15pm until 8.10pm...Another way of speaking,we only waited for first one hour and another hour,we failed to squeeze into that crowded train....After we missed 4 trains dued to our failure to get into the train,we success to force ourselves to fight for a small position in the fifth train...In the crowded train,I have no place to reach about to maintain my balance and just used my legs to brake myself when it was neccessary.I almost fall most of the time...To distract ourselves from that disgusting environment,3 of us were chatting in the almost deoxygenated atmosphere while sweating all over our bodies....

I think this is not my first time to experience this but this time is better than what happened to me last time....Last time,when I reached my destination,the big malay guy didnt allow me to get out from the KTM train,he grabbed me and people from outside just pushing in towards the train.My friend managed to go out from the train but I failed to go out.It irated me because the door was going to close....Nothing appears in my mind that second,I just shouted loudly to that guy "Excuse me!!!I want to go out!!!!" and everyone was looking at he n me.I was quite embarassing that moment but I was lucky at the end because I was able to go out once the guy took away his hands....What I want to say is,I really dislike taking KTM...It brings me a lot of scary and surprising outcomes most of the time....

Anyway,I have to thank man chun and kahyu very much because they sent me back home safely because it was too late that night or else it was quite dangerous for me to walk the bridge and the silent n dim path alone....Cam sa ha mi ta!!!(in korean)