Thanks god....I feel better today ..headache is getting less n less...But dont know y everytime go to IMU also get runny nose,especially during lectures.My uni is like a freezer...I have a problem-based learning and 2 lectures today...Problem-based learning about polycystic ovarian syndrome and lectures are about pathology of cervix and menorrhagia....Aiks...what a tough lecture to me especially when the lecturer is Dr.Vijah.In fact,I seldom get what he said most of the time in lectures.I think this is the common problem most of us are having.I feel apprehension about this....What I really concern and upset about is today's lecture is about cervical cancer.The scene of my dearest aunt passed away always appears in my mind when I study about cervical cancer.What is the risk of getting cervical cancer?Young age of first sexual intercourse,gave birth to more than 7 babies,Humanpapilloma viral infection,Chlamydia trachomatis infection,oral contraceptives,smoking,more than 2 sex partners and transplantation.In fact,I wondered when I knew my aunt had cervical cancer.It is because she never has bf and never consume oral contraceptive before.Of course,she never give birth to any babies and she does not smoke.What is the fact that she was infected with HPV???But people who infected with HPV are normally having very active sexual activities.Why?Why?Why she has cervical cancer?And when she was diagnosed with it,it's the last stage,which is the end stage of poorest prognosis...Just like what most ppl think,it depends on fate.Sometimes,u can get a disease although the incidence of getting it is only 1%...It's unfair to draw a fullstop to such a good citizen in this earth but this is a fact.We shall accept it...I missed my aunt very very much...I hope she can feel my regards to her although she is up in the heaven now...
How can I solve the feeling of missing someone?It's not to one people but many of them?What shall I do to stop missing u?Especially to my love one,looking at photos cannot fulfil the will to see and hug u....Day-dreaming cannot satisfy me as well....What shall i do to handle this problem???Give me a hint or an answer please....
I am almost exhausted now since I have been weak for 4 days....Fever + headache + tiredness....It could not be Dengue Fever because there is no red spots and myalgia (muscle pain) and joint pain....It might be viral infection because there is fever....After consuming some medicines,it showed sign of recovering and made me happy for a while but eventually I felt sad because it was not.....I wasted few days without doing any useful things and I really angry and hate myself...Why I SICK??!!I want to recover as fast as possible...I was lag behind now!There are a mountain of notes watiting for me!I have not well-prepared for my IELTS yet!I hate myself!!!What I hope now is....once I open my eyes tomorrow morning,my illnesses recover and I gain back my energy and spirit to finish all my responsibilities....Go!Go!Go!Bad Fever+headache+tiredness!!!!
Time flies away...It has been more than one month I started semester 4.Everything are still running smooth recently...This semester is not as busy as other sem despite there are more systems in this sem.My biological rhythm has changed since this sem.Hence, my health is influenced by such a irregular working n resting hours...I'm getting sick more easily....having insomnia n headache are frequent attacks that I suffered from...Yesterday...I am like a useless pig...did nothing but having a bad temper for the whole day...maybe I am still sick,so I cant focus on what I studied although I look at the notes for several hours...I really hate myself....What is the problem happens on me?Why I am getting so vulnerable?Fortunately exam is not around the corner...It's on May...so what I shall do now is to correct my ways of assimilating n to get back my biological clock to normal,otherwise I'll be having friends of various type of diseases....Apart from academics,there are also several frustrations that make me paranoid about recently...I dont know why I am always thinking too much and sensitive to all sort of things surrounding me....Someone trying to start a conversation with me but refuse to continue for it...Why the one who did it doesnt want to have a nice ending between us???I wonder...Maybe life is not as perfect as what U think...Sometimes,imaginations are needed.Humankind's mind is tough to read,that's why conflicts exist between man....What I want to say is that I shall enjoy in my own way of life. At the mean time, if I think I didnt hurt others in my way of living that's enough.Consideration is needed and just try to overcome my obstacles and challenges in the perfect way that I can do....
