Guide me pls~

Thanks god....I feel better today ..headache is getting less n less...
But dont know y everytime go to IMU also get runny nose,especially during lectures.My uni is like a freezer...

I have a problem-based learning and 2 lectures today...
Problem-based learning about polycystic ovarian syndrome and lectures are about pathology of cervix and menorrhagia....
Aiks...what a tough lecture to me especially when the lecturer is Dr.Vijah.In fact,I seldom get what he said most of the time in lectures.I think this is the common problem most of us are having.I feel apprehension about this....

What I really concern and upset about is today's lecture is about cervical cancer.The scene of my dearest aunt passed away always appears in my mind when I study about cervical cancer.What is the risk of getting cervical cancer?Young age of first sexual intercourse,gave birth to more than 7 babies,Humanpapilloma viral infection,Chlamydia trachomatis infection,oral contraceptives,smoking,more than 2 sex partners and transplantation.

In fact,I wondered when I knew my aunt had cervical cancer.It is because she never has bf and never consume oral contraceptive before.Of course,she never give birth to any babies and she does not smoke.What is the fact that she was infected with HPV???But people who infected with HPV are normally having very active sexual activities.Why?Why?Why she has cervical cancer?And when she was diagnosed with it,it's the last stage,which is the end stage of poorest prognosis...

Just like what most ppl think,it depends on fate.
Sometimes,u can get a disease although the incidence of getting it is only 1%...It's unfair to draw a fullstop to such a good citizen in this earth but this is a fact.We shall accept it...
I missed my aunt very very much...I hope she can feel my regards to her although she is up in the heaven now...

How can I solve the feeling of missing someone?It's not to one people but many of them?What shall I do to stop missing u?Especially to my love one,looking at photos cannot fulfil the will to see and hug u....Day-dreaming cannot satisfy me as well....What shall i do to handle this problem???Give me a hint or an answer please....