Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Wishes


Just woke up from a 9hrs sleep,and now I was full of energy.I find that after I leave Sandakan last year,my sleeping,working,studying,eating hours and everything are getting into a mess and never regular as before.I occasionally bath around 4 or 5am and what a ridiculous bad habit is that I prefer to have sleep after sunrise or after my class.Everytime I woke up I saw I have many missed calls from daddy and the highest record is 15 missed calls....

I remembered that once I first came IMU,a totally new environment to me,I was not familiar with it.apart from that, I often missed my family and friends in my hometown.No one accompanied me came that time,my mom came with me but she went back hometown after 2days of shopping with me.Though daddy always made calls with me but I really felt lonely here and fear always arose without awareness.The recording of the first week of orientation week still runnung in my mind now.That was the first time I met one of my best friends now in IMU,SAU LEE.Besides,I also met my fren,Vannessa when I first stepped to my hostel.She is from Zimbabwee and she was very nice.I learned a lot from her.We used to study together and she was the only one who was beside me the night of my birthday last year,the night that my relative who is very close to me left me away and passed away from a seriously suffering and horrible disease...

That's why yen started to hate her birth since last year.She refuse to celebrate her birth even her friends want to do so.Sweet memories with her will be immortal in my mind and her advices and thought will no longer disappear or vaporised from my brain.I love her very much!~~Actually my birthday wishes for last year is hope god can bless her relief from suffering from her cancer but the cruel fact told me that she left me before my wishes reach the god....This is how cruel FATE might be most of the time~~

1 comment:

ray said...

hmm... it IS kind of messy daily life you having now, and one thing is for sure, this living style does no good for your health but worsen it.

Try to organize your life style back to a normal one, because sooner or later your body wont be able to continue support your current living style...

There is this friend who used to be living in the same unit with me, he come from Indonesia, same as my other two unit mates. From the story of my other mates, this friend is quite rich and talented one in art. But what i know about him during the period of living under one roof, he's nothing but always complaining anything around his life. Eventually, he start skipping his classes until his parents found it out and forced him to go back to his country.

I found out the problem he facing is that his adaptability to a new environment. I believe human being is made to be able to adapt into any kind of new environment, it's just that different people need different time for them to adapt the new environment.

As i told you before, our life is just like at a starting point, there will be more situations and new environments waiting ahead of us, so it's time to start pick up this adaptability skill instead of doing nothing or getting mess up.

One's birthday should be happily celebrate with family and friends, as that day you being born into this world. You shouldn't hate it just because of someone dear to you die on that day, it will just create a misunderstand to the dead one that she the one who causes you to hate your birthday. This will just make her worry and cant enjoy in the alternative world. Also, this only bring sadness to your parents...

From other angle of view, i believe your wishes has reached to god. HE relieved your love one from the long suffering, it's just in a way that you not expected. Maybe this decision is also agreed by your love one? No one knows...