Feelings

I have been insomnia for few days....

What is the reason?

I used to sleep a lot previously....

I seldom get dreams or nightmares last time....

but why terrible scenes always appear in my mind while I

am sleeping now?

What had happened?

Yesterday,my beloved daddy phoned me from sandakan.Once I heard his voice,tears like wanna rushing out without awareness....What had made it happened?I wonder...Is it I homesick?Is it I alone?Is it I face any challenges or difficulties?Is it I stress?I wonder....Eventually I control my feeling,I avoid from let him know that I was kinda sad yesterday,I dont want my daddy worry about me.He is a great father to me,although he is not perfect in his personality,he used to work hard to support my big family.He stricts to me because I know he cares me.He scolds me because I know he wants me to be good.Daddy phones me everyday and sometimes I will feel tired to reply his question.He repeats the same questions everyday and he always find topics to talk to me.He is my newspaper reporter.He used to tell me everything in the news everyday.Since I have a great daddy,why I wanna tell him what I had suffered here??

I prefer to put secrets and all my feelings in my heart.I prefer to bury them into my heart and let it be scar.A true hearted fren is not easy to find.A true hearted best fren who can understands you and considerable is more difficult to find.Previous days,I always show my unhappiness through my facial expression,surrounding frens and people always me why always unhappy but I replied them nothing.Now,I learn to keep my things inside my heart and wont show my feelings on my face.But isnt it suffer and pain?I used to it...

Fellow and frens,dont be afraid to be fren with me,I am not moody,but there is really a lot of stories inside my heart,I always fail in expressing what I want to tell to you only....Actually I am a good listener and I can share many experiences to you..So,please DONT FORGET ME,I am glad to be fren with everyone!!